His text message had me on fire. I felt myself falling for him just from the words on a 10-inch screen.
I closed out the message without responding. Realizing I was in a relationship came back to mind. Doing my best to be faithful was beginning to get harder.
Sitting on the couch, next to an empty bottle of whiskey, I thought to myself, “Who have I become?”
I yearned for excitement in my relationship and ended up being starved. It had been a year since I’d met the man texting me and we had yet to have sex. Sometimes I felt intimidated that he was beyond what I was ready for. He poured positivity into me like a faucet. Our conversations had me smiling nonstop. I could tell him my ideas and he would add to them.
There were times that I would find myself reading a text sitting next to my boyfriend at the time and smiling without realizing it and forcing myself to fix my expression before my boyfriend saw the smile on my face.
It was like trying to hide evidence from a crime scene.
Having a man jealous because he isn't the reason you’re smiling is insane.
If you truly love someone, wouldn’t you want to see them smile even if you aren’t the reason? Maybe I have unconditional love mixed up or maybe people have it mixed up.
